Another baby? Wait. They're BABIES!

Last few nights, i dream about i'm pregnant! astaghfirullahalazim~
I was terrified, and sweating like hell when i woke up from the dream.
They're twins, and if i'm not mistaken, both are baby boys~ T.T
This was my 3rd time i dream about baby, but this one is different.
I mean the feeling.... weird + uneasy... Minta jauh2 benda2 yg tak bagus~

I asked for "expert" opinions, well...lot of versions. What can i said?

What? Seriously?

I'm surprised with the offer from my boss actually. A promotion. Seriously?
With all the rumours, all the back-stabbers, now- a promotion? you must be kidding me!

I was torn apart into two actually,
my heart saying NO! Don't take the bait. And my brain says YES, it is your opportunity girl!
a tempting raise, great exposure, excellent support from Mr.H. Finally, i said YES.
My brain dancing happily, but my heart hurts a lot. I know i can't turn down the offer anymore.
or i need at least 2 months notice before resignation.
My heart hurt because i know, i am not happy working there. Seriously, NO.
My heart trying very hard to convince my brain, but it failed.
I'll try my best to do my best, so that i can gain more thrust among my top management.
i know i have the capability! i know i can! I wouldn't failed and felt in front of those back-stabbers! I'll show you what i am capable to do! I'll let you see what does it means by,
"Working with your brain"!

Bestie + Boyfie = ???

Well...this is a belated post for year 2011. Hahaha! Busy bah....

December 2011 was the last month of 2011, but also was my most awesome month for year 2011! Seriously! ^^

Why? Because i went to Bintulu to met my dearest bestie - Syimah, for her brothers' wedding. I stay at the grooms' house and "busy"-ing, trying hard to blend in with her family members. Thrust me, it is a HUGE family of Syimah. Aunties-uncles-nieces-nephews-cousins-grandparents. My oh my. I was totally a STRANGER in her family. Haha! Bak kata org...cina sesat... :D I like the friendliness of the family. Nice~! most important was, i can spend my time with Syimah, although it was a short meeting with her & family. And that was my first time being a passenger in a car, with Syimah becoming the driver a.k.a. tourist guide! WoW! Boleh tahan Syimah tok..(walaupun first time of the Kelisa dah diambik oleh Nad. Hahaha.)
I was glad and enjoy my stay in Bintulu, stuffing my stomach with chicken wings & fried mee, which were really sooooodddaaaap @ Tanjung Batu. I didn't tried the recommended ABC/Ice kacang because i don't like it. Hehe..sorry Syimah~ And thanks for the meal! Kenyang perut kmk balik Sibu~ :D

On the 23th of Dec, my little boyfie came to the town! yeay! i was like.....jumping up and down, excited to met him! That Friday was really killing me...office hours seems flying so slow~ Right after office hour, i rush to Terminal to fetch him! Awwww....so bulat~ Gain weight. Hahaha! Jaik eh. But he'll always have my heart no matter how does he looks. (=^.^=) I'm glad he came to Sibu, and met my family. We spend our holidays together, and he was interrogated by my Uncles(Mummy's brothers). Huhu..He's being gentleman and i'm glad his doing fine among my family member. Well done Mr Teddy! <3

So, conclusion is....Bestie + Boyfie = Awesome! ^O^

# looking forward for more gathering with Syimah, & Mr Teddy! <3

Those moments that make me said..."awwwww..."

While i'm sitting in front of my "hybrid" lappy, some of memories knocking me~
I would like to share some moments in my life, that make me felt like..."awww...sweet..."
^O^

(a) When i was in my first week, for my Diploma in UiTM, if i'm not mistaken, it was our orientation week. Well...a tough one. I still remember that night, the first night in the hostel. Alone. I was texting with my friends back in hometown, and then suddenly, i received a SMS from him. My daddy. "I miss you, and rindu mau makan your cooking." I cried when i read that SMS. It touched my heart. At home, i'm the one who cooked for my family when my mum out for work. I guess my Daddy was really missing my not-so-delicious dishes. Until now, working at Sibu, i still cook for my Daddy, and i hope i can cook for him until my last breath~

(b) This is one of the moments me with Mr.S (may him rest in peace). He did much much things that touched my heart. Beside Mr.Teddy, he's the only one that i can thrust, and cried in front of him. One of the things that he did, was when he gave me a heart-shaped music box, cycling his bicycle & standing in the rain in front of my house. At first, i did not want to meet him, because i was warned by my so-called "abg angkat" not being close with him. Haish~ But finally, i gave up. I can't let him stand in the rain. I have to get my mum umbrella and met him. He confessed. I cried. But, i declined and let him go home. That was because of my stupid-ness, afraid of being committed in a relationship. Hey...common'! I was like...form 2-form 3 at that time. But i did like him a lot. A great & kind Chinese boy that i would never forget~

(c) Another "drama"-like episode in my life. Mr Teddy, who always being there for me when i'm sick, happy or sad. One fine day, while i'm alone at my aunt's, with nothing to eat or even to cook, i sms him, asking him whether he can "tapau" for me or not. Then suddenly, the weather changed! Cloudy, and thunder-ing. Then i cancelled my intention. Thinking that i can have Milo, while waiting for my aunt to came back. He said, ok, and made me promised him that i would sms him if i'm starving. After few minutes, it rain cats & dogs. I hid under my blanket, planning to have a nice nap. *yawn* Suddenly, door bell rang. I ran to front door, and he's in his motorcycle!! I was like....OMG! I open the gate and let him in. I'm speechless, and the only words that came out from his mouth were, "kmk takut ktk lapar. Hujan pun hujan la....Janji org yg kmk sayang x lapar....". Tears already came down my cheeks, and that day, i have my most delicious lunch that i never had before! <3

(d) My relationship with my lil-bro was always not so good. Maybe it was because our different characters & ages that become our gaps. I still remember how we grown up fighting with each others, which ended with punishments from our parents. It was my "quarantine-week" when i'm suspected with H1N1, Still remember? I was tooooo sick to get up from my bed, and hardly to ate anything. Fever & vomiting were really became my routine. One day, my lil-bro suddenly came into my room, and asking me am i ok. I was really, really surprised he bother to ask. I said not ok. Feeling going to die. Then he just walked out from my room, and i can heard he's going out with his motorcycle. After few minutes, he came back, with a pack of "asamboi", & a pail in his hand. He said don't want me to feel awful, and hope me get well soon. I was like.....awwww...so sweet...the little devil has an angel heart as well~ :)

Well....There were lots of memories that make me feel grateful, happy, and "aww....." Surrounded by family that are hard to shown their love, but have HUGE heart and care about me, and friends that are tough-rough on surface, but have GIANT -soft- kind hearts, that never let theirs hand off whenever i needed one. I love to remind myself of those moments, which make me stronger when i'm down, & drift my sorrow away~ Those moments, i will always kept in my box of memories, pray & hope that one day i can tell my kids & grandchilds - how wonderful are my family & friends who craft a <3 on each of my pages of life~

Missing someone that i shouldn't~

Hey you~
It have been a while since the last day i met you.
How are you?
I know i shouldn't, but YES, i do miss you a lot. Really.
I heard that you're sick. Please do take care of yourself.
I have no rights to step in your life. I don't.
The least i can do is pray for you, get well soon.

It hurts when i saw you with her,
but i would like you to know, i have him in my life now.
He's nice, caring,
and always making me smile with his stupid jokes. Like you do.

I miss you a lot.
I miss those days you smile at me,
laugh at my clumsiness.

Please do take care of yourself.
Rest well, be happy.
You have my prayer. Sincerely.
I'm holding myself to distance us,
but i know i can't do that,
because you still have piece of my heart.
Now, i hope time flies,
and let my heart to be complete,
because my heart is his now.

P/s: Do you miss me like i do?

Failed Packaging! Oh my!

Lets the pictures do the talking. =.="
Make your own conclusion(s)~ *sigh*

Fun Fun Day!

Last week was my most busy week! Our company had Opening Ceremony & Blessing Ceremony, and my cutest boss ask me to be in charged with the food & decorations. ^^

As usual, i seek for my partner-in-crime's help, Miss M. She helps in decorations, and contributed her ideas - balloons here and there, ribbons up and down. (Dear readers, please put in your mind that, my workplace in 3 floor building and the decorations in included all floors and main gate of the factory~ TQ)

But thanks to the Air Compressor, our jobs for inflating the balloons became easier.

Common'! 800++ balloons in 2 days man! I even can swim in the "ballon pool"!

Then, the food. (FYI, i forget to snap some pictures due to too busy escorting VVIP.)

I ordered MINI CHEESE TARTS, SANDWICH, MINI MUFFIN, PUDING & CIFFON CAKES. *gulp* which served 100++ guest.! =.="

It was fun working with colleagues, and OT until 8:00pm for 3 days! It was worth and much appreciated by my boss when he SMS me after the event.

"Thanks for your efforts and hard work. It is a big success both today and yesterday. Well done guys!" I was like....awww...so sweet of you~ ^^

I'm glad that everything went well, and boss is satisfied with out efforts and hard work! ^^

Tired. Giving Up.

With the current workload, really am feeling tired and wanna giving up.

Study + Working + Long Distance Relationship = @.@

First of all, my role as a Research Master Student is not as fun as during my Degree time with all dearest classmates & friends. Now, working alone. Negrepak in front journal articles alone. Garu palak alone. @.@ I'm suffering! Jasmine will be the one who will always sms me when i'm almost doom. Not forget Syimah when like usual, i bersadu, nya mendengar (atau melayan sms i). Seriously, i'm toooooooooo tired and lost my motivation, and FYI, i have not being assigned with any supervisor, and i haven't finalized my area of interest! and yet, next February would be our Defence of Proposal! My oh My. I even cried in front my journal articles, because i don't know what the heck the authors are talking about. =.="

Secondly, my role as a "dedicated" worker in the company. Haish~ if only i can work in the cubical and ignored other co-workers! Why have to be so busy-body & jealous? OMG! Common' la! Pangkat aku rendah dari kau, gaji aku lagi la rendah dari kau. Apa gik kau x puas hati?

Adeh~ I dunno how many stories "the girl" made about me & M, and for sure they're not positive "stories"~ =.=" I can't stand with these "red-eyed" co-workers. I dun even touch or overlap your works girls! and i dun give a damn! Damn it!

Bos bagi aku kerja, kau jealous. Bos embak aku g seminar, kau jealous. Bos tunggah aku & M masuk office, kau jealous. Muka masam kedak hari mk ribut taufan jak. Hey girls, where's your professionalism??

Third, the relationship is making me weaker day-by-day. T.T but he always cheers my day. i'm feeling to giving up. It's not i dun have feeling anymore, but the torture is really tearing my hearts apart. T.T Stay strong. Thrust. are no more in my dictionary. This relationship seems so impossible. Maybe i'm not the one for him. Maybe there's more girls that are much better than me, being there for him whenever he need one. Sitting beside him, comforting him when he's in miserable. Accompanying him, when he need someone to make decision for him. Cooked his favourite when he need a boost after a worst weekdays. I can't do all that for him. I can't....i really can't be his 24/7 loyal companion when he needed one, and yet i'm so far from him...

maybe if i let go this relationship, he'll be much happier than now? Maybe....

The job ain't sweet at all!

Alkisahnya~ Segalanya bermula pada hari aku, M1 & M2 masuk kerja kat company tu.
Everything was ok and fine, i'm happy and grateful that i got the job.
Tapi langit tak sentiasa cerah, terutamanya setelah M1 ambil alih HR & jadi P.A. Bos sekali gus.
Aku dgn M2 masih tergantung. Jadi admin a.k.a org suruhan M1.
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu hati aku. Fine. Sabar. Simpan dalam hati.

Thing getting worst bila M1 mula mengada2, and jadikan aku org suruhan.
Bak kata org Sarawak, ulun aku ke hulu hilir.
Kerja nya aku buat, kerja aku aku buat juak.
Yarabbi. Sabar jak aku.
Kaki bodek Bos.
Bos ada, rajin semacam jer. Bos xda, tanduk & ekor keluar.
Fine. Aku sabar. Simpan dalam hati.

Then bila accountant baru , T, datang. Hell is coming my way too!!
tok gik sorang. Tukang ulun.
Paling seksa, baru hari ke-4 kerja, dah suruh Bos tukar system.
Com. tgh pakai system UBS(Inventory & Billing), tu pun aku, M1 & M2, dah kial2 nak pakai.
Nie pula datang si T, nak tukar ke Q&E yang jauh lebih susah.
Dah tu, bila aku tanya, pandai pakai ke?
Dia jawab:" Nope. It's not big deal."
OMG! Nak jer aku campak dia kat sungai belakang office aku tu!
Not big deal kau cakap?
Suka hati mak bapak kau jer cakap nak tukar terus tukar.
Si M1 pula ikut jer apa T tu nak. Bos pula DUA KALI LIMA!

Mana pergi P-O-L-C ? mana?
Dah lah plan nak tukar, tak ajak staff lain bincang.
Cakap nak tukar , terus tukar.
Changes are about everything! including whole company!
Common' lah! Where's your business planning?
Stress aku!

Si M1 pula, hari2 nak tunjuk lagak kat aku.
Story kat aku apa tu HR.
Hey! Talk to the hand!
Bukan aku mk sombong, tapi aku student business. Aku belajar human resource!
Mk jak aku ambil buku HR Diploma aku dlok timpa si M1 ya! Suruh nya makan buku ya! Bok nya tauk apa HUMAN RESOURCE MANAGEMENT!
and adakah sorang HR exec ptt hari2 cerita pasal privacy org yang nya tauk? yg supposenya confidential?

Argghhh! Stress aku kerja mcm tok.
Bukan aku tolak changes, but CHANGES NEED TIME!
Bukan nya datang kerja hari ke-4 dah mk tukar system yg dah diguna 2 tahun!
com. besar gik at least take half year utk P-O-L-C.
Tok dalam 1 minggu dah tukar system. Next week dah guna system baru ya. I'm a deadman!

Datang gik kisah shipyard manager, pdh Bos complain dgn nya,
kmk org dalam office JEALOUS dengan staff baru!
Yarabbi! How come a BOSS can said such words?
Where's your professionalism??
why should we jealous? Tell me!!
It's all about being fair or unfair.
Tell me. How come when you hired new staff, and me & M2's work loads INCREASED,
and M1's work loads DECREASED?? Tell me!! EEE! mk jak aku cekik2 bos ya!

Now i see clearly, we can't ran from RACISM~
We're all fresh grads from Degree, why me & M2 treated differently? Why?
Gaji nya JAUH BERBEZA dari aku & M2. Why?

And yet now, we're working like hell to prepare for Internal Audit on November,
and ISO audit on February. And now you tell me, you want to change the system,
and we have to key-in EVERYTHING from JANUARY ???
Argghh! Sendiri cari pasal. If things can't be settled before audit,
then fail ISO. Then you'll see what i'm saying!

That's why,
aku dgn M2 dah ready surat.
If things getting worst, aku & M2 akan chow.
We have given our opinion & thoughts, but org x peduli,
if things out of control, pandai2lah sendiri.

#Stress Kerja. Nasib ada Mr.F, lawaknya lah yang polah aku bertahan. Abgnya yg bengong sikit. Adeh~ Stress.Stress.Stess.#

TOTORO~

Last few days was my worst days~

Family problems. Relationship problems. ~>.<~

Even until Syimah keep on SMS-ing me, MC-ing me.

No Reply. Sorry dear.

mengalami kemurungan tahap cipan.

Day-in, day-out.

Today, my boss really make my day~

Boss: Haslina, do you know Totoro?

Me: Which Totoro?

Boss: Japanese anime?

Me: Yes. Why leh?

Boss: *evil grin*

Me: Why? *sepetkan mata*

Boss: You remind me of it! Hahahaha~

Me: =.=" *walk away*

Then, my collegues in the office laugh like hell.

Me as well. Finally.

Can't help it anymore.

Haish~

"TOTORO"

Like me meh?~~
=.="
Then, i jump a bit. Walk slowly.
into...the boss's office...
Haha...
He's shocked & speechless.
Ambik kau. Sapa suruh madah aku kedak Totoro.
Then, suddenly, he laugh again.
He seems happy. Fine!
=.="
That's my story of today.
Actually, my daily routine in the office,
is listen to Boss's jokes.
Spontaneous ok!
i'll share with you guys next time.
There're more funny incident in my office.
Because of the Boss, Mr.F~

#am grateful that i have a Boss that know how to make jokes~ <3

Second Year!

15 AUGUST. Save the date.
It's OUR 2nd anniversary!
i decided to make a Memorial Photo Album for him.
with "158 Reasons Why I Love You" =D

Let's the pictures do the talking~

(promised Syimah to post them here~ ^O^

From Left: Hand-made photo album, handphone pouch(sew by my cuzzie, i have one too! ), Garnier Men Facial Wash (He always wanted to try that one! haha) & Adidas Perfume (I like his smell in the perfume. Mild and refreshing :P ) - I think i prefer giving stuffs that he can use, so that he can think of me all the time~ hehehe~ ^O^
I've posted the presents for him yesterday and i hope he'll like it!
Well....i've gotten presents from him as well. :)

A ring with our name sketched on it~ I love the ring very much! Besides that, i got a lovely card, two boxes of CHOCOLATE! (yummy~ my favourite!), and his favourite shirt ! :)

# My wishes for this year: I hope there are more anniversaries for us in future. Do let the sweetest memories swept away our sorrow, and make me strong enough to stay in this LDR~ <3

Maybe i'm not good enough~

Everyone have their own best girl-friends. 24/7 hang out.
Joys. Tears. Sharing each other little secrets and keeping it safe.
Shopping. Movies. and doing stuff together.
I'm envy...
i tried my best to be good with other girls.
But it seems i failed. Totally a loser. i guess.
I'm not a fashionita. I'm not a gadget-geeks.
I'm not a hot chick. i'm not a drama queen.
I'm just a normal girl that have normal life~
Maybe that's why~
I don't have the ACTUAL girl-friends that i can hang out with.
Friends come and go.
Recently, i just realise that,
the one that i see as "Best Friend",
putting the other girl as her "Best Friend",
instead of me.
Maybe i sound like a kid, but it really hurts me.
Years of friendship. Just blown away like that.
Maybe i should walk away.
Maybe i'm just not good enough to be one's best friend.
~>.<~
Maybe until the end of my last breath,
i wouldn't found one.
# Being a stupido for years, without realised about it!

i HEART him

It was my first day of Bachelor's Degree when i met him~

awww....his smile really make my heart melted~ dup dap dup dap~

We're friends and i hid my feeling towards him.

Keeping safe deep down in my heart.

Everyday he'll SMS me. Just to have conversation.

sometimes about study. and sometimes he's trying to "digging" my personal life~ :P

When i'm sad, he tried his best to make boring jokes, and yet it makes me laugh. I wonder why.

When i'm happy, i think he's happier than me.

When i have problem, he spare his time for me to find ways to solve them.

Days by day. Weeks by week. Months flies as well.

My feeling is getting stronger. I think from "i like him", it turned to "i love him"~

One fine day, he confessed! OMG! my world is spinning around and around and around~

i can't hide my feeling anymore as well~ <3

He's part of my life now~

Every little thing he did for me touched my heart~

His unexpectaly romance make me drowning~

I just love him more and more, even though we're far apart now~

2 years isn't an easy road for both of us~

There's arguement, about past, present and even future~

We cried. We're hurt. We're trying our best to defend this bonding between us~

I know he wouldn't let me fall~He wouldn't let me go~

I'm grateful he's in my circle of love now~

I really do. and i do love him. With all my heart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY N.K.!

Just wanna have a short update~ ( because i'm sneaking around & used my bro's pc~ :P)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA KARINA! <3

May you always have LOVE to share, HEALTH to spare and friends that CARE~ <3



BIG HUGS from me! xoxo! <3
HAS

VVIP in the Town

Last Saturday, there was a VVIP in the town. But i have to work for half day until 12pm, so i didn't manage to spread RED CARPET for the VVIP. :P I can't concentrate at all during my working hours. Time seems flies soooo slow. I just can't wait to meet the person face-to-face. A bit nervous + excited though. ^.^

Tick tock tick tock...it's almost 4 P.M. already, the VVIP send me a message that the group had arrived Sibu, and my heart was going exploded because i was too excited!

What do the VVIP will think about me? Am i growing "bigger"? or am i look different since we last met? Myohmy...butterflies in my stomach. No. I should said Bees in my stomach, because it hurts than usual~ =.=

Around 5p.m., i humbly send a message to the VVIP that i would went to hotel to fetch the VVIP. I check my car,OK. my appearance, not too bad. Then i drove the car and waited for the VVIP. Again. I didn't bring along my RED CARPET. *sigh*

We talked a lot and i really miss the VVIP a lot. We laugh and laugh and laugh. Now, the bees are gone. I brough the VVIP to Taman Jubli Bukit Aup because Sibu don't have beaches, or waterfalls. The only "highland" that we have is Bukit Aup. We fed the fishes in the pond and took some pictures. ^.^

Then, i brought the VVIP to my humble home to meet my family. My mummy likes the VVIP very much. <3 and i'm honoured to be able to taste the VVIP's homemade chocolate. Yummy!

After chit-chat at my home, i suggested we went to window shopping before dinner. We went to Farley & Medan Mall to find the VVIP's sis favorite Popcorn. But we're unlucky, the shop was closed.

Without wasting any precious moments with the VVIP, we dig in @ McD. I only able to threat the VVIP with McD. Yes. McD. Not any other fancy restaurants. But i hope the VVIP wouldn't mind ya! ^.^

Around 11pm, i send the VVIP back to the RH Hotel. We hugged. (yes. We hugged). and said good night to each other. I hope we can meet again. Soon.

I really had great time with you dear VVIP - Hasyimah Kiprawi~ <3

No More Jobless

Time flies. It have been almost 3 months i left my schooling days back in Kuching. And i got my final semester result already last month. Am grateful and blessed. :) Straight 4 although it seems so hard for me to went through all the bumpy roads during my research.

Research Proposal done. Advisor changed last minute- Twice. Changed of research title and re-do whole Research Proposal. When done, lappy problems and Research Proposal GONE. And re-do. Again. Done. Lappy problem again. Research analysis GONE. T.T

I can't remembered how much tears, anger, feeling of giving up during the whole process. Finally, final presentation done. Final Thesis done, and Industrial Training done. Really am grateful i still breathing. Fuuuh~

Now, it have been almost a month i am No More Jobless. ^^

I was called for interview right after two weeks i'm back to hometown.

It's newly established company(2 years), run by 3 handsome Chinese brothers. *melted* ^^

I'm still in my 3-months probation period, i'm surprised with the $$$$ offer although i have no experience and have little knowledge regarding the industry. Alhamdulilah.

and just few days ago, the eldest brother called me into his office and he's offering a raise for me. Another blessing. ^^ Thanks a lot for the trust & confidence in me Boss!

I wouldn't disappointed you and try my best to do my best!

I'm learning and will never stop. I love my current job~ ^^

Praying for signing-off the contract soon and get the "permanent" status~ Amin.

I have to say, working @ the private firm is totally not the same as gov't sector, in term of the norm, culture and attitude. I'm not against gov't sector but i can see the difference.

It's really competitive @ the private firm because everyone is working their ass off to be the best. So do i. But in a healhty way.

There's few times i did mistakes because i don't know, and i admit it. The boss didn't scold me but encourage me to learn more and he didn't even said a word about my mistakes. Same goes with my collegue. 3 fresh graduates, including me are the attention of the office because there will be re-structure of the position in the office.

Currently, the boss wanted me to be in Purchasing Department, training under Purchasing Manager. All i can said is : INTERESTING!

Mr H. teach me a lot and i'm glad he can bare my long-listed questions. Haha~ I learnt a lot about Human Resource as well. Not easy at all. Have to deal with Foreign Workers. Philippine. Indonesian. Myanmar. Bangladesh. Chinese. Language barriers are my concern for now. T.T

Wokey! Times out! Stop writing about my No More Jobless life right now~ Adios Amigos~

*Grateful and blessed *

The Fallen Hero

Hi Bloggers! <3 Sorry for leaving my blog untouched for so long~ L.A.Z.Y. I'm officially one of the "Geng Underground", so i'm avoiding to do anything that may do harm to my "Geng Underground" You-Know-Who-You-Are
Well, due to the boredom that i can't took anymore, i sat on my chair and think what should i write today?~ Then, childhood memories came back to me. So...Here goes the story:

Since i was a child, i was reallyx3 naughty. DO Believe me. Can you believe that i was once running around my housing area because chased by my mummy with rattan? Haha~ I'm famous because of that! Not-so-proud-of-it-though. =.=

One of my hobbies during my childhood is CYCLING~ My first bicycle is my Grandpa's old bicycle~ I still remembered how i cycle it without i'm able to sit on it (because my leg are too short~ T.T) I sold kuih-muih from house to house (Like Siti Nurhaliza bah~ :P ) , and my cousin likes to ride at the back (She's damn heavy~That's why i'm so thin at that time~ :P)

My second bicycle is smaller, but i can't remember where did i get the bicycle. For sure, that's my FAVORITE! ^^ Why? Because i'm HERO when i'm with the bicycle.

Since i get the bicycle, i started to involved in "Gejala Rempit". Hahaha. Who were my opponents? BOYS!

and...believe it or not, i'm always the WINNER...until one fine day.....

Like usual, we're racing with each other at the playground, i'm winning...

suddenly, i saw a boy at the playground, waving his hand and smile at me....

and while i'm "cornering"....i didn't see the road divider in front of me...

and there goes the HERO become "Fallen Hero"...waaaayyy into the drain~ T.T

The only thing that i can remember was boys were laughing at me, and i cycled back with tears~

(and until now, i still believed that "the boy" who waved at me was a TRAP! Haha~)

Since then, i retired from my "activity" and started to play pondok-pondok with my girl-friends. But seriously, i missed those boys a lot~ haha~

THE FALLEN HERO - @ the back of my house~

Why Great Wall of China?

Why Great Wall of China? Even though she's small in size, but you don't know how strong and big is her heart, tough like the Great Wall of China. Her determination and hardwork lead her at where she is now today. Strong like the Great Wall of China. She's like the wall around me, support me whenever i fell, protect me whenever there's storm coming my way. She's just supportive like the Great Wall of China.

There are so many things happen between me and her. Joy. Tears. Misunderstanding. But she's always there, always there, for me. T.T She's as loyal as the Great Wall of China.

She's part of my journey of growing up, accompany me along the way, either the road that i wrongly took, or the road that i have not taken.

I walked across the Great Wall of China with her.

My stubborn, my temper, i think only she can swallow that. Because she's always be the great listener and excellent advisor for me.

I deeply apologize to her for my childish act. I'm sorry.

She's always have been the strongest personnel in my life. Kind-heart and understanding.

I'm glad i have her in my lane of memory. I wish with all my heart, i can also be her Great Wall of China. I will try my best. I do.

I can't imagine if one day, i have to separate far away from her. Even that day, last day of our day in UiTM after final exam, i've already cried like hell. Hugging each other.

This heart is really hurt and sad. T.T

#Friendship Forever. And i pray for the best in her life and may God bless her~

Dedicated to you: Syima XoXo

First interview in my life~ =D

Dear readers,

I would like to share my happiest day in my life to all of you~ =D

Well, today i received an unexpected call from Miss C, xxx company.

"Miss Haslina, we have received your resume and we would like to arrange an interview with you."

Then, i was like.." Really? "

Miss C :" Ya. Is it possible for you to come to xxx company for an interview at 1:30pm tomorrow?"

Me :" Ya...sure no problem. Thank you very much!"

then conversation continue...bla..bla..bla...(Q & A session)

mun nya dapat nanga aku, nang lebar senyuman aku smpey ke telinga~haha

I know it's just an interview, not the key for me to get the job.

But by thinking of there's someone appreciate my resume and spend his/her time to read through, is enough to me feel so happy.

It's ok of i didn't get the job, but i'll take it as an experience for me. Take it positively. =D

Rezeki di tangan Allah. Aku bersandarkan kepada-Nya.

Even sometimes when i didn't get what i want, pas ya ngerepak depan kawan2 sebab frust, then i quickly tell myself that, mun aku x dapat ya, bukan rezeki aku lah ya. Maybe HE's planning something else for me, maybe something better.

Syimah always advised me, to be grateful of what we got. She's the one always listen to my ngerepak-ing, then calmly gave me bombastic advise. Hehe. Thanks dear!

Certificates (Checked) Resume (checked) Application letter (checked)

Just pray for the best for tomorrow.

D.U.I.T Doa.Usaha.Istiqamah.Tawakal.

Knock! Knock! SPM leavers!

Aloha! 2 hari lepas result SPM dah kluar. Apa macam? Flying colours or Suam Suam ?

For those who get flying colours, tahniah! tahniah! tahniah! ^.^

yang dapat suam suam, common' ! This is not the end of the world !

Jangan putus asa. SPM cuma batu loncatan yang anda tak nampak.

I tau ada yang sedih, frust, malu, macam tak nak hidup da...result aku teruk la!

Please...angkat kepala tu...angkat! Tarik nafas dalam2. Bagi tau kat sendiri,

Aku yakin aku BOLEH!

Korang tak tau...result SPM aku dulu teruk gak~ serious s*it, aku pun rasa macam tak nak hidup da...tapi pastu aku mimpi, tak tau korang percaya atau tak, aku mimpi.....

Seorang orang tua rambut putih, janggut panjang gler... Dia bagitau kat aku,

"Lin, jangan putus asa. It's just a beginning of your long journey.

This obstacle doesn't mean that u're done with your life.

This is to build a stronger you."

Me: " How should i know i have more future with this result?

How should i know what my future gonna looks like?"

Org tua:" You'll know. You just wait and see...."

Then, org tua tu pun hilang. Aiseh! Mesti korang tak sangka mimpi macam ni wujud kan?

Aku pun masih tak sangka, but i do BELIEVE that GOD does gave obstacles in order to make us stronger~ HE does plan something BETTER for us in future. It's just the matter how patient we are to reach the destination, and anxiety kills us when we're anxious how much obstacles would come towards us?

My friends around me always told me that they're jealous with me because i'm clever and don't have to put much effort to study. Oh NOOOOO....u guys have no idea how damn crazy i study, it's just i didn't show in front of you. My principe is " Just follow the flow~"

I studied when i'm ready and can focus. When i'm tired, usually maximum 1 hour, i release my mind, i repeat MIND, not KNOWLEDGE, through computer games, music,enjoy food and of course SLEEP. I don't believe the term of burning midnight oil. Well, it depends on individuals. But NOT ME.

As human being, aku pun tak lari dari perasaan jealous kat kawan2 yang cemerlang. Tapi aku tukar perasaan tu jadi turbo aku. Aku nak macam DIA juga! Aku nak strive macam DIA juga!

Kalau DIA boleh, mengapa aku tak boleh? (Walaupun last2 result aku tak lah bombastic macam DIA, tapi aku puas, sebab aku tau kemampuan aku, and aku tau DIA sentiasa adalah IDOLA aku- sehingga sekarang).

My life as student, from primary-secondary-diploma-bachelor degree, is not easy at all.

Peer pressure (Kawan2 yang pandai2, and competitive), family pressure (sis & bro graduates), environment pressure ( semua relatives termasuk bau2 bacang mau tau result aku). Hah! That's not easy man! Of course, aku tak nafikan, aku nie tak lah sentiasa cemerlang, that's life, Up and Down. Macam korang, yang dapat result suam suam, tell yourself it's ok. Tapi jangan lah korang asyik "it's ok" jer bila dah masuk U nanti. Adeh~~

Strive for your best! Especially first 3 sem, jaga CGPA elok2, sebab kalau dah naik sem 4 ke atas, susah nak upgrade CGPA tu (aku bercakap dari pengalaman).

Satu lagi pesanan aku, jangan sesekali KEDEKUT ILMU. Adeh~~ Ini memang pantang! Aku tak lah cakap aku ni baik, tapi aku tak pernah sembunyikan apa yang aku tau kalau kawan2 aku minta ajar. Kalau aku tau, aku ajar sedaya upaya ikut kemampuan aku. Kalau aku tak tahu, aku cakap tak tahu sebab aku tak nak sombong bodoh, sesatkan orang dengan ilmu yang tak cukup.

Sepanjang perjalanan aku bertarung dengan dunia pendidikan ni, memang ada hamba2 Allah yang kedekut ilmu. God bless YOU. Ada nota extra, tak nak share. Ada tips, tak nak share. Aku tak kisah. Cikgu aku cakap, kalau ilmu disimpan, lama2 akan hilang. Kalau kita berkongsi ilmu, insyaAllah ilmu kita bertambah.

Last but not least, aku menyampaikan pesanan lecturer aku, Mdm H :" Jangan sesekali MENIRU semasa exam. Cikgu kita mungkin tak tau. Kawan2 kita mungkin tak tau. Tapi TUHAN tau. TUHAN nampak. Bila kita meniru waktu exam, dengan result itulah kita cari kerja, dari kerja itu kita dapat duit, dari duit itu kita menyara hidup, duit itu masuk perut. Jadi rezeki H.A.R.A.M. Astaghfirullahalazim. Diminta jauh2." Aku mengaku, aku pernah meniru waktu zaman sekolah dulu2. Zaman jadi budak degil. Huhu. Aku tak malu mengaku sebab aku tau aku memang salah. Bila fikir balik, nakal juga yer waktu aku masih budah sekolah dulu2. Tapi seriously kata2 madam H memang menusuk kalbu aku, *ting!* terus ketuk otak aku nie yang tak pernah terfikir soal betul salah meniru nie. Sampai sekarang, masih terngiang2 kat telinga aku nie. Alhamdulilah. Aku masih ingat pesanan cikgu aku. Aku pohon diminta jauh2 niat aku untuk meniru. Biar result aku teruk, padan muka aku sebab tak ready. Tapi janganlah aku meniru untuk result yang bagus, yang bombastic.

ok lah. Panjang pula pesanan mak cik Has hari ini.

Aku cuma nak share apa yang aku tau, apa yang aku nak bagi tau & apa yang aku rasa.

Yang salah dari hamba Tuhan yang kerdil ini,

yang baik hanya dari Yang Maha Esa Maha Mengetahui.

P/S: Never Give Up on Yourself. If you don't believe yourself, how can others do the same?